Autopilot

I have come to realize that I have been running on autopilot. I am sure you all know what I mean - going through the motions, but not being able to let your feelings out. Here I am breaking out of autopilot and feeling. I am sad, worried, scared, and so very lonely. I am feeling isolated, and out of touch with the world around me. Adam works weird hours, Tyler has been sick for so long, I am worried about finances, health issues, you name it. Tyler got in on a cancellation list for tomorrow at 10. I am so glad for that.
I am lonely for friends. I love my husband, and he is my best friend. It's just that sometimes you need a friend that is another woman. I am very lonely for that. I hope you all understand.

Mom of the Decade!

In my never too humble opinion, this woman couldn't get any better. She is loving, selfless, caring, attentive, and even when her burdens are overwhelming she is there for anyone to lift and support. She is the prime example of a Christlike person. She is raising two boys and two girls, and taking care of her husband. She is one of the kindest people anyone could have the blessing to call a friend, and I love her dearly.

The winner of this nonofficial award is (make a drum roll sound on your desk)

BECKY ORTON!

You are the MOM of the Decade!

YOU ARE LOVED!

Life

Well, I made an appointment for Tyler to see the neurologist. The new meds that he was given haven't done him any good. I am guessing that we will be in for new med changes. He has had 12 days with migraines this month. Poor guy.

Adam is doing well at his new job. He likes it there, and the people are nice as well. That makes a huge difference in the workplace. That can either make you love or hate your job.

I am used to (well getting there at least) to his new schedule. He isn't quite on first shift or on second. He is floating somewhere in the middle. So, by the time I get used to this, it will change over completely to second shift. I am just glad he has a job! I hope you are all doing well!

Stop Moving

I have spent this afternoon in a complete and total depression. I am feeling so overwhelmed. You know, like life is spinning by but I am moving in slow motion. I am tired, and having a kiddo with health issues can be draining. I love my kiddo so much, I wish he could live the normal teenage life. Waiting to hear back from the neurologist again. We'll be alright, just getting some stuff off of my chest.

Are we Geeks or What?

Okay, a family secret is about to be revealed. To all that know us, please understand. It is a family tradition that cannot be broken. It has to live!

WE ARE A FAMILY OF STAR TREK JUNKIES!

We have a special love for Voyager and TNG. We have open conversations about which captain is better, we watch on a daily basis. We have all of the movies as well. Please remember that we are the same family you knew before you read this. Remember:

Live Long and Prosper.

Faith, Family, and Friends

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Faith to me is essential to get through life. I have faith in my Heavenly Father, and the Savior, and I count on guidance from the Holy Ghost to get me through life. Without faith, all is lost, but with faith everything is put into perspective.

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Family is another essential. My family for me is like breathing; I need them to survive. Wherever my husband is feels like home to me, and that home is not complete without Tyler.

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Friends are the added bonus in life. Whether you talk everyday, or just once in a while friendships make life sweet.

Thtinky Thursday

It has been a thtinky Thursday. My family (Not Adam, Tyler, or me) has been going through some tough times. I am most definitely caught in the middle. It is hard when you feel like your loyalties are kind of cut in half. I just wish that they would put their grown - up pants on, and deal with things in a civilized way. Sometimes families really thtink!